Songs We Love: David Bazan, 'The Ballad Of Pedro Y Blanco'
It's easy to take David Bazan's music for granted, or to turn away from it. For two decades, first as Pedro the Lion and then under his own name, he's been making songs that quietly pick apart doubts, miscommunications and personal failings in order to expose soft truths about human struggle. He's both singular and reliable, and within a narrow but potent vein of subject matter and style, he's an explorer. Whether his subject is the flaws in the stories we tell each other, the existence of the divine or the fragility of relationships; whether writing songs for a rock band or for electronics; his songs feel like conversations with a trusted friend ready to share what he's working through. It can be hard to listen carefully if you're not ready for an accounting of personal inconsistencies you'd rather ignore for now. He draws you close.
Care, Bazan's enveloping 2017 album, continued his recent swerve into synth-based music with its sights set on partnership, parenting and other issues of domestic life, including — crucially for him — the creation of art. It's easy to imagine this mid-career shift as the result of sharing a family space: You can make tracks on headphones, and the music can reflect the clarity and sustained turbulence of a life that's settled but newly terrifying in ways that the percussiveness or distortion of a guitar can't. Much of Caredeals with moments that don't feel make-or-break but accrue weight. Friends split up. Stress from work throws off the balance of an alliance. There's only so much time to spend together after the kids go to sleep.
The album's final track, "The Ballad of Pedro y Blanco," stands apart from the rest of the record by taking a telescoping, fourth-dimensional view of an intimate relationship as it progresses from initial devotion to final flickers. Bazan's lyrics toggle between first and second person, as if he's singing to a younger self, reliving moments so vividly he can almost project himself into his own past experiences. I want to quote the entire song, but here are the opening lines:
Trying to find a place in this mess
And pair off with the one that you like the best
That could be romantic, or it could be devastating — faced with the whole world and the rest of your life, this is how you choose a partner? What follows doesn't make the picture rosier:
Right away you're out looking for food
Wondering if you both made the wrong move
But the subject here, as with the rest of Care, is making commitment work, and the relationship survives kids, stress, busy schedules, resentment, retirement and grandchildren. The track, filled with a swirl of chimes, ticks and astral squeaks, lends "The Ballad of Pedro y Blanco" a feeling of myth-making, except Bazan's lyrics are more like the narration of a family photo album your parents would never actually provide. When I first heard Pedro the Lion, I was a teenager, thinking about how I might make my way apart from my family without losing what I learned from it. I've orbited back to Bazan's songs many times in the 20 years since, often in need of something steady and centering but not rehearsed. I'm a parent now, and more often than I ever expected, find myself trying to spin hurt or confusion or minor injustice into something meaningful. It's a small thing, but it's deeply reassuring to know he's out there working through these issues too, and sharing what he's learned.
Care is out now viaUndertow.
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